now

If you saw me as I was
today, 
my unabashed laughter in a roomful of those
we never dared claim to be near the standards of, 
be it intellectually or just by sheer virtue of
skin color.

If you saw me as I was
yesterday, 
brave.
My voice the only one in a hall of 300. 
Calling out the right answer. 
Better. 

If you saw me as I am. 
Would you still say you knew me? 
Would you still say you know me?
Would you still say you loved me?
Would you still say you love me?